Against Free Will 2

If free will is the will free from the Lord's will, then I really do not believe in free will anymore.
I was created by the Lord and He put me in my family as a third generation Japanese descendant in Brazil. I see myself as much more rational than most of Brazilians. Why? Did I choose it? Certainly not. Perhaps it came from my Japanese genetic. I am much more frugal than the majority of Brazilians. My father created me this way. Did I choose that?
As I said, I did not want any porn in my life; but I was slaved to it. Did I choose it? No.
I was born in a Methodist family. Did I choose it? No.
Did I choose to believe in Free Will? Certainly not. I was born in a proper environment. Not only the Methodist church but also the Japanese culture put a lot of pressure on: it is your responsibility.
Did I choose not to believe in Free Will? How would I find a friend who would question my inner beliefs?.
Even my wife... did I choose her? I can not say so...
In what degree can I make decisions apart from God?
For me the answers are clear: there is no way to make any decision apart from the Lord.
Well, therefore, are Arminians wrong? Are the majority of Methodists wrong?
The Bible says: Seek the Lord with all your heart, all your strength and all your soul; Seek me and you will find me if you seek me with all your heart; Repent and believe in Jesus; etc. The Bible are appealing to my what? Certainly to my will.
The Lord expects an answer from such order. He expects me to put aside my will and submit it to the Lord. This creates a fight inside me and the proper decision is to surrender to Jesus.
The Methodists (and the Christianity)  are correct when appealing to repentance and Jesus submission (even though, I really do not appreciate altar calls).
However, this answer is not apart from the Lord's will. Even the temptation and demons are under the Lord's will.
I just do not believe anymore that my flesh is totally my problem and that I have the power to decide correctly or wrongly! Or even that I myself have chosen Jesus with no God's intervention. How come! Absurd! Did I deliberately have chosen porn? Certainly not! For me, now it is very clear: I was a slave of sin and my Redeemer set me free even before I was born, at the cross.