Predestination

Now, in 2019, I exist.
My hands that are writing this post are formed by carbon, hidrogen, and some other atoms. I was born in 1963, so, certainly, no one of these atoms were "mine" in 1961. I daresay that most of these atoms didn't belong to my hands 3, 4 years ago.
Do I have these atoms, molecules? Do I really own my body?
Do I own my mind?
Do I know the Lord?
How do all these things happen?
The Lord decided a long time ago, that he would create the C, H, O, etc. and assemble them on my hands. He decided that he would create my brain, and that he would put "my" thoughts in it.
Do my thoughts are really mine?
I am yours, Lord.
Praise be to you because I am yours.

Matthew 11:20-30; Responsability and rest

Today I preached Matthew 11:20-30. Jesus foresees a fierce punishment to the cities of Galilee where he showed many miracles because they didn't repent. The Bible says that the more one receives from the Lord (revelation, miracles), the more he will be charged. There are different degrees of responsibility: an intelligent person is more responsible than a dummy one. There are different kinds of people: even though, one may read the Bible and attend many sermons, he doesn't believe. Other may receive the gospel quickly. So, how does it happen? People from Cafarnaum had hard hearts, but why some have hard hearts and others not?
A normal preacher would be disappointed with himself if after a heavy work, there were just a few converts; but Jesus told that the Father decided to reveal celestial things to little children, that is, people who are not wise in their own eyes. So, what happened to Cafarnaum is not Jesus' fault. Jesus is talking about predestination, the will of the Lord that transcends human desires.
Jesus says that he is the one who reveals the Father and after that, he invites anyone who is weary and burdened to go to him. The Son has the power to reveal the Father and in doing so, he will provide rest to the one who goes to him. Interestingly, this rest comes from taking seriously Jesus teachings (his yoke) and be his disciple (learn from him). He is the teacher, I am his disciple. He is not a furious and proud teacher who mistreats his own disciples. He is a gentle and humble teacher that takes care of his disciples.
He is a teacher that makes the lesson (love the Father, and love others as yourself) easy.
Amem to this.
I really think that the Lord revealed me this sermon, but I don't really feel proud about receiving this revelation, by opposite. This afternoon, after preaching, I watched some youtube videos about finance, but with some kind of sorrow in my heart. I know, I really know, that the great wealth is not money. So, I was sorrow with my own heart because I should focus on love the Father, and love others, not money.
That is why I decided to write this post: to stop thinking about foolishness and focus on Jesus.
I said in public that satisfaction is in Jesus.
Is this real to me?
Do I have satisfaction in Jesus?
I said in public that there is a music which says: "Jesus is everthing to me".
Is it true to me?
Yes, it is true, even though, sometimes I loose the way; but my dear Jesus is the good pastor who leads me back to the way.
It is true: I find satisfaction in Jesus because I believe that he is powerful, much more powerful than my own sins. So I find satisfaction in Jesus when I repent (about looking youtube videos about finance at Sunday afternoon) and find the cure in him.
Love means to cultivate relationships.
Sir, let me be a good husband and a good father today.

God forbid

My father, 82 years old, has paraphrenia. He behaves as someone with schizophrenia. It means that he is somehow paranoid about everybody. Everyone has stolen money from him, mainly my sister in law that lives with him. He listens to what he calls a "little radio". Nowadays, this radio makes he goes somewhere to receive a big check due to selling his own house to Bolsonaro (he means the president's son). However, I explained a thousand times, that this radio is a liar and besides that, all his real estate are blocked due to inventory.
Until now, he has been receiving me well when I visit him, but today, he accused me of taking his money. I went there specially to talk to him, but I couldn't.
As a christian, I understand that I'm a heaven citizen, that my real place is not here; so I don't have to be worried about money. However, I really enjoy thinking about finance, stocks, companies and I would like to become a better investor.
God forbid that I become paranoid as my father. He lives in a world in which he must have money, where every cent counts. He can't enjoy all the gifts that the Lord has provided to him, he even can't see that the Lord is good. He tries to find rest in money where thieves (his loved ones) always rob him. He can't see that he is loved. He can´t rest. He always must pursue an imaginary deal where he earns millions by selling a house. Poor dad! I had admired my father, I thought he was a man with much more good sense than a lot of people in a university, but today, he is really crazy. Poor me that I went there to visit him and I was misinterpreted.
God forbid that I can't rest in Him.
God forbid that I see money as my great treasure because I know that my evil heart longs for money.
Let my Lord be merciful to me and make me rest in Him, always.
Let my Lord make me understand that he is good and he gives whatever he wants to his own children.