I am 58 year's old.
Today is Sunday.
Although my wife sees me as a lazy guy, I have been always thinking about my life and where I am heading to. My wife acknowledges that sometimes I am obsessed with some thought: something that troubles me and I must solve. I am gradually stopping these obsessive thoughts that consumes my brain and are generally unproductive. I have to stop thinking about some problem in my job, about some problem in relationships, about my future and about money on Sunday.
Let Sunday be my resting day.
Let Sunday be my thanksgiving day to the Lord. I must acknowledge everything the Lord has done to me. I must be grateful about my family, my job, resources at my disposal, my health and friends. I really want to stop thinking about conquering something grandiose. Let me thinking about serving the great Lord, about carrying my cross, dying to myself and living to Him.
I have been always a egoistic guy, very eager to dominate the world. Fortunately, the Lord forbade me of having everything I wished for. I can't imagine how proud I would become.
Jesus didn't found any local church but he told about the assembly of believers in Matthew 16. In these days of corona-virus, the church is closed. Perhaps the great thing I could do in my retirement is to be more engaged in some local church. I am already engaged in my little Nikkei church that is diminishing - very, very few people. I think that I should find a more "living" church and leave a "dying" church.
I don't have real friends in this little church. It seems that I and my family lack some real communion.
I am using Saturday to have a familiar cult by internet and I am also talking to two other people about christian related things. I fell more in a local church on Saturday than on Sunday, when we have the cult of our little church.
