Galatians 5: the free beggar

The beggar can´t survive by himself. The Christian is the beggar who is aware that he can't trust in his own works to get near the Lord. The Christian knows that he can only trust in the cross - Jesus died to him and that's why the Lord accepts him. When the beggar is aware of his condition, and aware of what he has received, he is free of himself. He is free for loving others. The Spirit moves in him producing love, peace, joy, patience; but when he trusts in his own works (ex: circumcision), he begins to exalt above others. Instead of loving, he competes with others trying to be some imaginary race. He hates others. He wants to be the number 1.
Am I aware of my condition?